I don’t know about you, but to support my writing, I need to hold down an Evil Day Job. As of the end of this month, I will no longer be working for my current employer, which leaves me at a bit of a crossroads in my life.
I sit here and I analyse different roles that I could apply for, that would suit my skills… but what I really wonder is – what I am I truly passionate about. What job do I want to commit 40+ hours a week to? And the only answer I can logically come up with?
Writing. Apart from writing, there is no other job in the world where I would want to spend that amount of time, and my LIFE doing. (Of course, motherhood is already a fulltime role that I already love, too!)
This is where my passion lies. As only another writer or creative person would probably understand….I am that passionate about making a damn good go of making this my full time career. It’s been my dream for years and years, and one that I would hold onto even if I won millions in the lottery. Other people don’t understand that. They don’t understand what it’s like to be a creative, and have this undying driving force bubbling under your skin, and swelling within you. They don’t ‘get’ that as a creative – when you’re actually creating something, well… it’s kinda like getting high. They don’t see how I can have the patience and diligence and tenacity to sit there and write a book.
And once you have written a book, it just gets easier and easier to write more and more. And you start to recognise those driving bits of inspiration that can amass into something so much bigger.
People keep asking me ‘what do I want to do?’ and I always shrug, and say I don’t know. Well the truth is that I do know… I just don’t know if it’s a feasible option at the moment. I always said that I would be full time writing by 2014… Now I have that opportunity, but I’m wondering if the timing is wrong. Guess I’ll just have to figure it out.
So there you have it. My current life story.